Personal Thoughts What is up everybody, I am having an awesome time today. First off last night my grandmother got angry at me and we had a misunderstanding and now she wont talk with me. She is telling my mom all of this stuff, and of coarse my mom came to me to ask about it. I then told her what happened, and she decided it was a good idea to talk to her about it, and now I am not going to talk with my mother because she can't keep her moth shut, and not help start shit. Also I am not going to be talking with my grandmother either. Anyway, after me and my grandmothers misunderstanding, it seemed like everything was fine, I mean I didn't raise my voice or anything, but she apparently cried to my mother, and when I asked her if she could give me a ride today she went all crazy and said no I'm to busy. All because I told her the reason for my not helping her weed eat was because of my programming class, but whatever. So, in effect I walked the 5+ miles to school and that is where I am now. I will also walk back, because I am not going to rely on people anymore, I just can't do that anymore, because I get left being late because of hormones. Ether way my best buddy Brad said he was gonna talk to some one about getting me a job, and I will probably move in with him in his dads extra house.
I know what my plans after school are now. I am going to pay off my loan, save up a bunch of money, get a car, then once all is said and done I will sell everything I do not need and move to California. This is because I need to do stuff on my own for once, I also need a change, and I have to get into the gaming business and Cali is one of the best places to start looking. I also have family that I have not seen in a very long time, I hope to visit them when I get there, I am sure they will be happy to see me. I need to do this for myself, it will help me get a firm grip on my life. I do not want to end up like my mother and father. I want to succeed and right now I feel this will be a big step in that direction. I need to get out there and learn what else there is in the world.
I am also strengthening my self awareness and building a healthier being in many ways. I already have been not drinking soda, eating candy, or extremely greasy foods, I do partake a small portion every now and again. Also under this list of things I am not doing is sex, drugs, and excessive drinking. Even though I haven't been doing drugs of any sort for a long time, I now have a firm stand on where that is i my life. So no nyquil, weed/smoking of any kind, or beer consumption. I may on an occasion have a mixed drink or a cocktail of sorts, but that is more than likely not going to happen. My plan is to be able to feel and without doubt be able to say "I am just as WATER is!" Hopefully this change in my lifestyle will bring much more enjoyment and understanding of myself, another hope is that I may have stronger relationships with people I meet. I just want everyone to know I appreciate everything and I hope that you are willing to stay as a part of my life for the years to come. I love all of you!